MENTALHEALTH, ETHICS & SOCIAL HEALTH MESH / Deciding to let her go

**Posted by Admin** Sun Jul 28 2:59 am

She called me again today after more up and down behavior at me. I didn't call her back. I realized how unexcited I really was. Initially I had the reaction of she called she called wow! And then I thought who are you kidding Carol? She's going to do the same thing she did before---ignore me the next day. Not call again for weeks and months. so I didn't call her back.

**Posted by Admin** Mon Jul 29 1:28 am

I called her
She hung up on me.
I texted her and she told me to bug off.
I'll leave her alone.
I'll just never stop loving her.

**Posted by Admin** Tue Aug 6 2:06 am

She did the same things to me that I predicted she would do.
I did see her at the place last week and she said it wasn't she who told me to bug off someone had messed with her phone and texted me that. She was about to say she wanted to still be friends when somebody walked up to her and hugged her and she hugged him back. After that she totally walked away as if I wasn't there. That was the last straw after many last straws. I haven't seen her since because I have avoided her she hasn't called me anymore I finally busted out crying in group and talked about it although I didn't drop names.
I have been devastated and numbed out and beside myself. And this compelled me to start LimA.

**Posted by Admin** Thu Aug 15 12:24 am

I think this is going to turn into a Limerence journal this thread.

My therapist at the program reached out to me and attempted to try and get me and Olga to connect and initially it was working out okay but then I had anxiety about it not working out because of my feelings for her. I'm not good at hiding my feelings and I didn't get a lot of support about coming out or about expressing myself at the program. So I'm thinking about once again ending it. Very seriously thinking about it. She was there today but walked past me again. She had called me last night and I had not been able to call her back for two reasons: fear of getting closer to her and it was also late too late to call her.
So I was hoping I would see her today. Well I saw her but she didn't see me again.
It's over I got to stop this before I have another nervous breakdown.
Turquoise

**Posted by Admin** Mon Sep 2 5:57 am

Olga and I had a date Friday August 9th but things very rapidly deteriorated when I realized that it had been set up and that she had done it out of pity.
We're no longer friends.
Guinness World record. Shortest friendship.