Update:
I pray I had a misunderstanding with the staff about Olga. My counselor informed me yesterday that she didn't leave. But that she will be back Monday. Now I'm the one who feels like running.
Hmmm...
Still gotta process this.
I don't know if I can handle it either.
I wish I could have been able to handle it 3 months ago I would have saved myself a lot of grief.
My counselor is going to give Olga my phone number on Monday.
I'm either going to have to beat him to it or not show up on Monday haha.
But I don't want to be the same person I fear she was last week. Running away from problems.
I love her.
And I can't stand it.
And it's a deeper love than just a crush.
DISCLAIMER: I am not a mental health provider. My interest in mental health is personal. *JANUARY: Begin Again. It is always dark at the beginning 😔🌚🔰🥂👶