Dee wrote:

You're still alive.
You must be doing something right.

🤗

If I continue to live my life as I've always known it. same:
Life purpose
Behavioral Issues
Staying in negative Life Experiences
And
Emotional and thoughts processes.
I project that I only have 5.5 years left to live.
Why?
Because I saw my life a month ahead. I did not like it. Imagining myself not changing at all
whatsoever.
No.
A year later. Again, no change.
I don't like it.
Nothing changing in 5 years.
I am playing it forward.
I imagine myself not changing anything at all. Continuing to crush on people that I can't have.
Continuing to despise myself.
Continuing to live my family legacy that I have no right to be here. No right to be separate and
authentic.
Continuing to believe that my life purpose is to fuck and wash dishes. Serving men and being
subhuman and feeling crazy. Living out my role as a mentally ill person.
Continuing to be unable to manage my emotional and thought processes and feeling like a victim on and on and on.
I'm not sure I am even going to have 5 1/2 years!
I'll have that long if I'm lucky and if I'm willing to change my ways I know I will have longer to
live.


Carol E., Life purpose module, behavioral module